Day 5:

i'm still missing you so badly...

when i'm alone, i kept thinking about you, my mum & dad.

tears just kept flowing when i think of you too much...

Was suppose to go to uncle calvin's house, i actually went pass his block & walk towards your block. i'm so used to going cell grp with you. i would always head towards your house first b4 going to cell group. Don't know when i can do it again.

Really hope i can get the hang of this.

i'm trying baby, i really am.

you must be strong & endure your time in army too.

i love you baby..

imy <3

Day 4

Hai baby, it's only Day 4. & i'm suffering like mad.

Mum got hospitalized this morning. I really just can't believe it that the people whom I loved the most on Earth is not around with me at all (for now). I miss my mum, i miss my dad, i miss you especially . I'm all alone now at home. I hate being alone. It's so scary, lonely & hurting.

I am so selfish. I just want the people i loved to be with me always. I just can't understand situations like this. I'm just dumb & naive.

Was missing you much. I took out the A|X shirt that has your smell on it from the plastic bag. The moment I took a deep breath, tears just keep flowing down my cheeks. I kept crying, I really really miss you so badly. I don't get to smell your smell which i used to everyday already. Your hugs that makes me feel secure, your kiss that always melt me, your laughter that makes me smile, your act-cuteness which makes me laugh & happy, your shoulder that i always lean on, your hands that i always hold, your words that's ever loving, your understanding, your patience, your fierce look, JUST EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU I MISSES. Words can't describe how much I need you. It make me realized that I can't live without you. If i were to collect the tears i've cried for the past few days, it can fill up a kiddy swimming pool already. I know you're crying too. But.... what can we do?

I thought that i can handle the situation well. But i proved myself real wrong.

I should have really really treasure you every single moment. I regretted saying those hurtful words to you before. Every cold war we had was just a waste of time. I promised baby, when you booked out, I'll cherish every single moment with you. I'll be the best girlfriend to you. I'll learn to be more understanding, patient, nice, gentle & more loving towards you.

You taught me many things, you've changed me.

I really thank God that he sent you into my life. Waiting for you is really worthwhile.... & i'll never regret it.

Thanks for worrying me even though you're in army. It's suppose to be the other way round though. But after every single day baby, i'll be stronger. Soon, it'll be my turn to be your strength & someone to reply on yea.

I love you baby.

Can't wait to see you on tues.

Really can't wait.

4 more days that we both gotta endure.

We can do it.

Goodnight. imy & irly.

Army Day 1

I'm back to this sad lil blog agn, got no one to talk to agn...

Hope you'll read it whenever you're free ^^

Sigh.... it's only day 1 & i cant take it anymore..

when you hug & kiss me for the last time, i suddenly felt the sense of loneliness.

but i was so happy when you texted me & called me on the phone just now..

it hit me that i should cherish every single moment & time with you..

without you around with me, things really arent the same. i really feel so lonely now..

i somehow regretted saying those awful & hurtful words to you before.

i've come to my senses alrd. it's really really hard to be parted with you...

but i have to look at the brighter side so i could stop crying..

Thinking that you'll be a real man when you're out, & i also could spend more time on my studies.. but seems like your presence is more impt to me than anything else..

ASDFGHKJGHGFFSLFLS!!!

i could keep on typing & crying & blowing my mucus. but i think i should really stop.

i think you need more encouragement than my rants. hehe

stay strong ok! i know you miss me like crazy too. but you must endure & persevere ok!

i'll be right here & there waiting for you, cheering for you.

even though i cant be there physically, i'll always be there mentally.

keep praying whenever you feel weak too. God will be there for you too. :)

& always keep that in mind that my love for you will never fade, but it'll grow more & more each day... no one can ever compare to you. my heart, is fully belong to you only.. i really miss you baby, i really really love you too.. words really cant expressed how i feel now.. but you got to know that you know that you know that nothing can ever separate us & stop us from loving each other.

Take care inside ok! jia you & be an officer. if you be officer, i promised to loose weight (in size though) & do well in my studies! & ohhhohohh ! i'll be waiting by the phone everyday for your call yea! =)

XOXO,

ME, YOUR DARLING, HONEY,DEAR, BAOBAO, BABY,BABE, (INSERT CHEESY NAME HERE)

^^

p/s: did i say tt i miss your smell? :(