today is D-day :)

i love you baby.

Our first time together making love

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY BABY PAU!

Bought couple tees for our 5th month anniversary~ i looooove it~

I'm so touched that u felt touched abt the surprise i gave you, didn't expect you to cry though!

muahahah! Anw, God bless you in everything you do.

After 21 years of living, you finally found me! hehe! & i found you too!

Thanks for choosing me to spend your life with. Thanks for appreciating everything i did for you.

Had a good time @ the chalet too.

but 1 thing i wna tell is that, you're suppose to enjoy on your birthday, & not to worry or tire yourself out alright? Hope each year will get better.

ooh ya, you're no longer a youth! (i think) hahaha! can watch R21 alrd! YOUR DREAM CAME TRUE! haha! Anw, thanks for being gentle with me just now.

i dknw y, but you're the only 1 that can make me feel ************** easily. haha! But we gotta be careful in everything we do. We almost did that O.O

haha! anw, anw, anw, I REALLY LOVE YOU! ALWAYS WILL ALWAYS DO~

^^

14-18th July

July

HAPPY 5th MONTH ANNIVERSARY PAU!

Time past so fast when i'm with you.
I don't mind growing old with you too~ heehee.
Thanks for the sweet sms you sent me earlier.
BUT WHY YOU SO FAST SLP?! @.@
Anw, I love you too baby & always will.

^^

MS

I.....

HAVE.....

MOOD.......

SWING.........! O.O


I can't believe it! I'm soo sorry you have to suffer :(

But it really hurts me when you say: "I can't do anything/I can't be bothered/ I don't care you lah...

Super awful words that stab right thru my heart; deep inside.

Don't say you're useless too, it makes me feel like it's my fault or sth.
& it's neither your fault too.. it's just too complicated to explain.
Just give & take i guess?

Anyway, I love you. Even though I get angry/upset with you easily, I get over it fast too.
You soooooo cute and handsome, how to get angry with you for long~ @.@

Yeap, your birthday is around e corner, i don't wish to spoil your days ahead.
So I pray that I won't say or do anything wrong these few days that will make you angry.
& I alsp pray that we'll be happy everyday!



*can't wait for thursday, my 1st attempt, hope it don't fail b'cos it's damn simple*



<3 ^^

My heart has no bottom for my love for you.

i'm sorry about the previous post.

i think i was being harsh.

i'm just being emotional.

and i realized that i can't leave you, for i love you so much.

i'm afraid of letting you go. i really want you to be by my side only & nth else.

not seeing you for a day seems like I've not seen you for a hundred years.

i really love you baby.

but i'm afraid right now, afraid that you will know that i'm not as great as you thought i would be.

i'm afraid you might leave me one day b'cos of my character and attitude again.

baby, promise me you won't leave me alright?

promise me that you'll be with me no matter what alright?

i love you, and will always do.

i love you baby,

but your love for me, i dknw....

i feel like it's dried up.

i just need your attention more.

i want you to be with me only, i can't be understanding enough.

i just want to spend quality time with you before you go in.

but when we have the time tgt, i'm always getting upset over silly things.

& yes, i get jealous easily. i get jealous over your friends.

seems like you're always happy when u're with them,

and feel like hell when u're with me; you got to hear my complaints n nagging.

i don't want to cry my eyes out anymore. my eyes needs a rest.

i cry over small things, i cry over big things, i cry most of the night.

bet that you're not even aware of it.

just want to tell you that i'm weak physically n emotionally,

i've changed so much that i don't even recognized myself anymore.

and you're always saying it's your fault, but did you do anything about it?

it's true u're useless, you don't even know your own girlfriend's heart is breaking like fuck.

and you know what hurts? it's when no one listens to me, including you.

i really don't know. God's being tough on me.

maybe i shouldn't even be your girlfriend in the first place. so that you'll not feel burdened or hurt or pressure or whatever shit u feel.

maybe i shouldn't even exist. so i won't trouble people around me anymore.

maybe all i need now is.............

death?

but i don't have the courage to do so.

& i really don't want to let you go.