i love you baby,

but your love for me, i dknw....

i feel like it's dried up.

i just need your attention more.

i want you to be with me only, i can't be understanding enough.

i just want to spend quality time with you before you go in.

but when we have the time tgt, i'm always getting upset over silly things.

& yes, i get jealous easily. i get jealous over your friends.

seems like you're always happy when u're with them,

and feel like hell when u're with me; you got to hear my complaints n nagging.

i don't want to cry my eyes out anymore. my eyes needs a rest.

i cry over small things, i cry over big things, i cry most of the night.

bet that you're not even aware of it.

just want to tell you that i'm weak physically n emotionally,

i've changed so much that i don't even recognized myself anymore.

and you're always saying it's your fault, but did you do anything about it?

it's true u're useless, you don't even know your own girlfriend's heart is breaking like fuck.

and you know what hurts? it's when no one listens to me, including you.

i really don't know. God's being tough on me.

maybe i shouldn't even be your girlfriend in the first place. so that you'll not feel burdened or hurt or pressure or whatever shit u feel.

maybe i shouldn't even exist. so i won't trouble people around me anymore.

maybe all i need now is.............

death?

but i don't have the courage to do so.

& i really don't want to let you go.