Hi, it's been a long time posting here. Guess that I had the most wonderful time with you ever since.. But I guess I can't take it anymore. We really fight over small things uh.. We are still young, childish and petty I guess. Even though I was hoping that you would still hold on to me very tight when I was about to let go. But seems like I've expected too much, you let me go. I was lost for that moment, didn't know what to do. I prayed to God with tears that kept flowing down my cheeks. It was so pain, but I know I want to take a break. Am I too reckless? Is this the right choice? I don't know. Maybe this one week of break, I'll really reflect and pray to God about it. I really didn't want to let go though, but because you were not holding me tight enough that is why I decided to take a break, in hope that you'll hold me tighter next time. Yea, next time... I hope there will be a next time. I'm so tired of doing and saying the wrong things all the time. I'm a girl you know. Sometimes I wonder, are you really the one God chose for me? I'll pray over it and I hope to get the answer within a week.
The thing is can I even not to talk to you and see you for a week?
I don't think I can do it but I need to do it. It's one of the best way I could think right now.
You're going NS soon, and I really really really hope this 1 week will not be a waste.
I'm soo tired. Need to stop here now.
